Everlasting: Part One

Ilan sa inyo ang pumalpak na sa buhay? Or maybe, the right question to ask is: Ilan sa inyo ang 'di pa pumalpak? I think it would be like asking: "Ilan dito ang 'di pa nakakatikim ng tubig?" That's because all of us have failed and have been disappointed in ourselves at least once in our lives. Wala naman sigurong perpekto dito, kung meron, pagdasal mo kami. Ang isang sanggol na nag-aaral maglakad, ilang beses natutumba at laging nadadapa. But will that keep him/her from learning to walk? Did that keep you from learning to? (Don't answer that question just yet)

I have failed many times. . .
so many times. . .
so many countless times. . .
a lot of so many countless times.

Even when I became a Christian, I was consistent in one thing - failing. I was consistently inconsistent. That's why you really can't call anyone inconsistent. Because even the most inconsistent person is consistent in being inconsistent. Get it? Ang mahirap kapag inconsistent siya sa pagiging inconsistent. Heheh! Ang gulo niyo! Okay, enough, I'm getting side-tracked off my topic already. Sooo, where was I? Oh yah - Failure. When I became a Christian last June 11, 2006. The day after the day after that (June 13), I failed my first test in godly living! Wow, right!? That's gotta be some king of record. Wala pang one week, palpak kagad! You can just imagine my frustration and disappointment on myself. You see, I had this false assumption that when you become a Christian, you will be instantly, completely, miraculously, and magically changed overnight! Satan placed thoughts in my mind telling me: "Whooo, paiyak-iyak ka pa nung Linggo (June 11), oh tingnan mo ngayon, babalik ka din sa akin, bwahahahaha!" (Haaay, ang mga kontrabida talaga, pangit na, bobz pa!). It would be nice to say that that was the first and last time I failed God's test. But it's simply not true. Back then, many times I would text my big brother messages like: "Kuya Allen please pray for me, I did it again." I remember telling him: "Di ko na talaga kaya! Ayoko na! Ang hirap magpakabanal!". I remember - I would often walk to my classroom feeling completely weak and discouraged because of a mistake I've committed, and then I would feel like that, and be like that for days. . .even for weeks. I would have given up. It would have been easier, right? But as I have mentioned in my previous posts, and I will gladly mention again and again: The Love that God has for us is So Great and unimaginable that He doesn't want us to remain defeated for long. And indeed, where can I go from His Presence? Lagi Niya 'kong hinahabol. Isipin mo yun! Hari ng mga hari! Panginoon ng buong universe, naghahabol sa 'tin! W-O-W!!! Bakit kamo? I dunno, but I believe! (God doesn't require us to understand all things, He just wants us to trust Him). His Love is unconditional, unparalleled, unending, everlasting, illogical, unfathomable and unimaginable! Can you imagine that?

- No you can't! unimaginable nga eh! heheh

So this is how it happened. Last year. . .

(to be continued)