DAY 2

2nd entry:

hmmm, thank goodness! it was just a harmless animal, though i don't think i have seen something like it before. it was too big to be a rat, but too small to be a cat. or maybe, just maybe, 'twas juz my imagination, never thought i still have one. hmmm, it must be the mist, it's all around the place, a strange mist indeed.

it's the second day now that mother's not in the house, thankfully enough, we survived another 24 hours. once again, i hope i cud say the same for the next ones.

nothing seems safe around here. we had nothing but froglets for breakfast, lunch and supper. no sign of any fat boar. dad cooked it, (don't let me describe it, you won't bear it). though it was better than nothing.

this afternoon, in search for a brook, spring, or river, i took a walk along the forest while dad and kim stayed in the tent i wish i had stayed in the tent too, o how i wish i did, but then again, i would have died of curiousity had i not ventured into the unknown woods.

as i was walking on the thick grass, i stumbled on what seems to be a tree root, though the closest tree was ten meters away. whether it was a tree root or simply a cut branch, i don't know. and whatever it was, it was gone now. i then found myself lying on a very unnatural turf. unnatural in a sense that the grass in that area was colored purple.as if by some enchantment, i was attracted to its color. i don't know how long i have been staring in it, but as i did, i felt a variety of "difficult feelings". i found it hard to breathe as is something is squeezing my heart, i felt angry, though i don't know why. i felt lonely, sad, yet elated. i desired to feel contentment and happiness, but in that place and in front of that strange grass, i just can't, i simply can't. i remembered that SomeOne once told me not to dwell in those kinds of feelings. i tried to stand up, it was hard! it would have been easier to remain lying there. it would have been easier to give up trying to stand, or walk, i felt so exhausted. i closed my eyes, and finally, managed to stand, i'm on my two feet again!

i walked for what seems an hour. then, i was definitely lucky to find a small pool. but it was no ordinary pool, a strange pool it was, the strangest one i have ever seen. 'coz when i looked down into it, instead of seeing a reflection of my face, i saw things, past things, past events that my heart seems to long for, i saw a friend, a friend whom i wish i could have back. i also saw a loved one, she seemed to have changed, it made me wish i could talk to her, but she was very far away, yet in the pool, she seems so real. i looked to the pool for hours and hours, i can't take my gaze from it. it made me remember past things, things that i have forgotten, it made me long for them. but the more i long for them, the more i feel sad and lonely. i tried to drink from it but the water was very bitter-bitter as a sugarless coffee. that's enough to turn me off.

it was getting dark by now so i decided to go back (kim and dat would be disappointed if i tell them i found no water) it was a miracle though that i didn't find it hard to return to the tent. it was strange, but i'm just glad to be back. i feel so tired. but gotta stay watch until 3. ahhh, my stomach aches..............